We are going to Austin today because there is an STF miniworkshop tomorrow for prospective STFers. They are opening up a witnessing center in Austin! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay. About time. Long overdue. There should have been a center there 30 years ago. Well, there was one there 30 years ago, but they should have kept it there.
Melissa Davis and her whole family came over yesterday. It was great to see her again. She's going to be a captain on STF -- third year. What a powerhouse!
14 people are coming up from Houston. Hero and Sylvia and some other people are coming down from Dallas. Then there are the Hill Country people, and they will be there. It should be a lot of fun.
Today we clean out the shed (which is more like a garage -- it's pretty big.) We are going to haul off stuff to the dump and get the shed all spiffy looking and nice.
Today we also pick up our BRAND NEW 50 INCH PLASMA SCREEN TELEVISION! OH YES! WE ARE SUPERBOWL READY AFTER TODAY! My husband got a big Christmas bonus from his boss to get a big plasmascreen TV.
It's 5:40 in the morning -- everyone is still asleep. The computer room is quiet and dark, except for my monitor glowing in the predawn hours.
Many thoughts are running through my head, but I don't necessarily want to share all of them. I'm worried about our 2nd generation. I'm worried about people keeping faith. I know how difficult it is to untangle the complicated world we live in, and how easy it is to slide into horizontal thinking that unplugs from the Principle and wanders into the nefarious nethergloom of what-is-this-all-about-anyway, forsaking clear and concise answers in order to explore.
While exploration is good and learning is great, dissolving the Principle is neither. My heart aches because I cannot be everywhere at once, helping people to clearly understand Father's words and navigate this labyrinth we call life safely and securely through parenthood and beyond. I am so grateful to Dae Mo Nim -- it is incredible that she passed on into Spirit World early, so that she could lay a foundation to prepare for our True Parents. Heung Jin Nim also -- I barely thought about the Day of Victory of Love this year. To die at age 17 in a car wreck and to go into Spirit World so early -- it's so sad. I saw his wife and son years ago at his gravesite, on a Korean holiday where they honor the dead. He told me his biggest regret is that he cannot hug his son.
Life is long. The answers are complicated. There are many false paths and dead ends that look good. It's really valuable to cling to the truth and let it illuminate your path. Father's words will ring clear every time, if you open your mind enough and put down your own cultural biases enough to enter into the realm of eternal truth. It's sad that for a lot of 2nd gen, they tune out the Principle like an overplayed commercial, because it was delivered to them without understanding, so they eventually presumed it offered no understanding.
Truth is not always obvious. Understanding it even less so. It takes effort and prayer, and a brutal honesty that few want to turn inward on themselves. In order to recognize what is true, you have to be pretty true yourself. Everyone thinks they are true and honest, because that is what they want to believe. No one wants to think that they are short sighted, or blinded by the world around them and it's viewpoint, or are hypocritical and self centered, or all of the above. But in fact, we are. Father's words cut through all that like a knife and let all the poisonous pus out of our souls that we thought was just normal. We try to pick it up again and put it back inside ourselves, we are so used to it. We don't want to change our frame of reference or risk having to sacrifice for that of which we are not certain. It's easier to believe that we are right so we don't have to change too much and so we can just go on with whatever our daily plans are, and our longterm plans, whether or not they jive with Father's words or the Principle.
But to build a happy marriage is difficult, and to be a good parent is even more difficult. Father's words really clearly explain to us how to do that. It does involve us sacrificing our opinion, and often, our lifestyle. But the long term benefits are incalculable. The downside of not doing so is pretty disasterous. And this is why I worry for our 2nd gen.
In True Parents hearts
Aunt DJ
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