September 7, 2006

  • Life and death....
    We are all but mortals -- no matter how immortal we appear to be.

    Steve Irwin's death saddened me -- the world lost a bright star of insane enthusiasm for God's creation. We watched a lot of tributes to him on Youtube the other night.  I did not know at first that people had made so many.

    His children will grow up never knowing their dad -- but they have a legacy of film by which they will know him, and their earliest memories will linger of the amazing animals and lifestye that he introduced them to.

    It is odd that a post or two after I wrote of losing my dad, I'd be writing of two young children losing theirs.  Life is full of unexpected echos that bring us to new levels of understanding.

    Sometimes I feel like I don't know anything -- like the things I thought I knew in life just melted to nothing and left me in a world I thought I knew but didn't.  I wish I knew things better. I wish I understood life better.  I wish I loved people better.  Even thought we put out our absolute best effort with all the enthusiasm and desperation in the world -- we can still get blindsided by a stingray barb that shocks the hell out of us, and we are lucky if it doesn't kill us.

    So, I will be grateful to live another day, to be with my children another day, to be in love with my husband another day, to teach kids at Sun Hwa another day, and I will desperately try to learn to be a better person and to do things better.

    Even though sometimes, I really have no clue what direction I am supposed to be headed.  Sometimes we just have to go forward with faith and hope to hell (or heaven) that we are doing something right and that life will be better because we tried to make the world a better place to live in.

    much love
    DJ